Religion is not all bad, and perhaps is mostly good. The biggest thing that bothers me about religions are their claims to be true. If religions were simply promoted as systems of useful metaphors, I’d probably have not complaint against them.
There are a few things that have creeped into my godless life that were not present in my godful one, and that go against what I think is right. My current belief system seems to lack the motivational impetus to control these behaviors. But now that I’m sitting down to write about them, I seem to have forgotten what they are… well, I remember one, maybe there only was one:
- Anger- Without Jesus, I find that I am prone to express my anger in ways that I later regret. It’s not physical, as I have never hit, nor do I believe I’ve even threatened to hit, my wife or children. It’s more an inner feeling that I didn’t use to deal with. I used to believe that God commanded me to be happy, and so I was. Or rather, I behaved happily (not all christians find it that easy, but as I’ve mentioned in other posts I seem to have something of a disconnect to my emotions). Now that I no longer hold that belief, I find that I’m more easily agitated. For example, if my boy is hitting my girl, I might grab his arm and yank him behind me as I pick her up. I’m sure it’s scary for him, because that’s the emotion that radiates out from me. It says, “I didn’t hurt you, but I really wanted to.” For the above reason, I find that I have to apoligize to my family more frequently than before.
If I think of anything else I lack without Jesus, I’ll add comments to this post.